May 14, 2003

A Semester of Uncertainty

The following is as short a summary of my current situation. Most of you don't know what's transpired in my life because I like to look like life is peachy. I guess evading reality is a short term solution for everything.

Due to financial troubles and New York University red tape, the Spring 2003 semester of my education will not count. I worked my ass of to take out loans and register for classes, but I was de-registered without being told. Don't worry, I found this out by the end of April, so I didn't have to kill myself over finals. It was, in a way, a blessing, because I had not had access to books, class databases and professors' emails throughout the semester. My grades were horrible, and my pride was taking its toll. It's not fun asking people to borrow books or notes or other materials over and over again. It's not. And fucking hell, I didn't have access to the library.

It gets better, though. So, I finally got an apartment. Roughly $1100/month rent, great considering it's smackdab at the intersection of Union Square and the East Village, and that dorm payments are considerably more. Our move-in date was scheduled to be May 15, but our landlord took until May 9th to tell us that, "Oh, we won't have the place renovated before June 1st." Thank you. Thank you very much.

So now, I'm in a hurry to pack everything, leave it somewhere and depart to Houston for two weeks, come back and settle down. I need places to store my belongings and then pray that I'm able to get some stand-by flights back home. It's all about praying, at this point.

Life is unbelievable sometimes; everything that can go wrong does. And you're left there thinking, "What the fuck did I do to deserve this?" But hey, what can you do but take it with a grain of salt. Shit happens.

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Rahat, it'll be okay. Not today or tomorrow but it'll be okay. I've been in many sismilar situations, that whole "why me" feeling has worn off. It's almost the norm now.

Good luck!

That is incredible. Too bad you don't live here where the grass is green and cars are aplenty. If I had the ability to be there and take care of you, you know I'd be at your doorstep.

And yes, I'll buy you food.

Fucker.

Aye.

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Ouch...sorry to hear it...I was similarly screwed by my college recently too. Hope you find a way out.

hey cat... long time.. i miss you =) i'll buy you food anytime baby ANYTIME so you'll never have to starve... take care

(Wow, that's a lot of spam posting. And from tonight, no less - odd.)

Somehow I missed the meaning of this the first time around. It's a trip to read it and know what's happened since, and who you are now.

You were teh brave.